wisdom

“with age, comes the maturity of mind but heck wisdom may not be there”

Its 7.53pm and Im still in the office. Thats a bloody big achievement for the year 2008. Hahaha. Well, reason being is that it is bloody raining outside and I cannot be bothered to go through the jam and be stuck for hours. Today, since I woke up with my brain stuck in my ass due to the over-powered pain of my tooth giving me a big freakin headeache, at least I still have the mood to do work. Haha.

Like I said in my previous post, day by day its turning into one of a hell of a sappy blog. I am at my lowest, and demotivated as ever.

Work – everybody’s leaving, wtf am I doing still stuck here with a low pay and a mountain of work? I got too comfortable. Thats the problem. As much as Ive been clicking away at the Job Portal to look for a new job, theres a big part of me telling me to stay. Well, the thing here is.. if I leave, i dont lose anything and If I do stay i dont lose out too.. So yea, am kind of in a complex. But I just dont know if this should be the field that I should stick with? Sigh.

Relationship – my ex wants me back but I dont. I dont love her anymore. I dont want to get back together just for the sake of being pitiful or whatever. After what happen, everything I do like liking somebody or whatever.. Karma decides to hit me back. Hard. Real Hard. And its still happening which I know finally have decided on … [lets see how it goes la hor]

Friends – Im blessed with the amount of friends I have and am glad that Im making more. But trouble awaits and Im not looking forward to go there. Conclusion to this part of story is that the world goes round and round, so does the situations. And sometimes, Im just sick of it. But still, I do love having them around.

 So whats wrong with me? Being the third person.. the answer would be.. nothing. Maybe Im just making a big fuss out of things. Or maybe there’s a few stuff that I need to battle with. Im missing something.. definitely.

Blergh.. when the hell is the rain going to stop! Yeesh.

Hopefully tommorows gonna be a better day. Lets just wait and see.

pain pain pain

Everybody wants life without pain. And what does it get you? Pain is there for a reason.

Have not been blogging that much lately and when I read back the past blogpost for the month, realized that I am not in the most healthiest state of mind. Isolating myself from the crowds and sharing of thoughts has become a norm and being the person I am, this is definitely not me. I am definitely in a comfortable state where I do not need to rely so much on anybody’s company and being happy just by myself. Well, some opinion would say that its normal to feel that way but well theres a lot of things which I have been keeping to myself which I do not feel the urge to tell it out because its easier to do nothing at all rather than doing something which may get you into trouble.

Am I going to end up to be in pain? This has been the longest time that I’ve been patient on waiting and I dont know how long I can wait and to know what will be the outcome may definitely kick me right in my ass. Some would say : “I told you so” Some would say : “Well, not your luck”. To think of it as the most priceless thing to me right now, should i stop? Fuck man, Im in a complex. But does it matter. You’re right MY, I am addicted to pain.

Im stuck Im stuck Im stuck. Get me out of this.

The Lucky 4 Clove Day!

pic : the St. Patrick’s Day celebrations in Mt Kiara.. festive!

The aftermath after St. Patricks Day.. woke up with a spinning headache on Sunday.

Blergh.

Thank god I managed to get myself to wake up to go for the Klickrs meet in Palate Pallete.. where we had our gathering for the 4th Anniversary of Flickr! We were broadcasting live with our member  of flickrs in Penang and the place was like a playground for everybody where flashes was going off and the snapping of camera’s can be heard. Haha.. There is nothing better to be around a bunch of photographers to get a good photo of your self.

pic : palate pallete, kl.

pic : inside palate pallete.. streaming, screaming and shooting. hehehe.

Anyways, it was a good meet.. cant wait for the big meet on the 29th.