politics… bah.

Yes.. Indeed it is a sensitive issue to touch about.

 

But fuck that. Im just a lil bit pissy about this issue on office politics.

 

I used to thought that theres no such thing because I was in a company where we actually practice being open-minded and say what do you think is right to your managers where this promotes a healthy debate or constructive opinions for everyone’s benefit. Towards the end of my working period, what I think didnt exist.. does. Office politics.. does exist. Mind me for being stupid enough.

 

Well, got myself a new job after that and joined the company where the people are lovely.. and after more than half a year working here, I realised, again.. the politics are back and its annoying.

 

Really.. never trust anybody who you work with.. doesnt matter if youre close as buddies. Colleagues are still colleagues and sometimes they do stuff that they want to just get ahead.

 

Benci.

the four rooms

paid a visit to quattro yesterday.

my opinion on the place. it sucks. big time. give me the bars on changkat and ill be happy.

very the chinky la. cannot tahan. blergh.

the ban

first they ban tomboys. then they ban yoga. whats next?

i think they should ban all forms of exercises like qi gong, tai chi, even running, karate or whatever sports which originated from different countries due to its influence. They should also ban gyms or even the simplest form of exercise.. jogging.. since its from a western culture.. STUPID LAH.

went to breakfast this morning and was reading the papers and came across a feed that the fatwa on yoga was being put on hold for some states as they (the National Fatwa committee) did not present to the State Fatwa committee. Good job!

and then, feeling a lil bit annoyed i continued flipping on a few more pages and something else caught my eye :

Fatwa against Smoking

What the fuck lah kan?

Well, thats Indonesia’s problem and I hope that “thought” would not come into the heads of the Committee here in Malaysia. blergh. Damn bodoh.

To read more:

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/11/25/nation/2636425&sec=nation

the one’s with the title

stupid law.

on the way back from seeing a client in Jalan Ampang and seriously..dont know what the hell is wrong with KL today.. all roads in and out of the city was jammed. i wonder why. must be for some stupid reasons.

anyways.

i detest all the “orang-orang besar” when they’re on the road. The one’s where there’s a few police escorts on bikes, cars.. whateverlah. like i mentioned earlier that there was a big jam on the road (to be more precise, Jalan Tun Razak) and cars were not moving.. and on top of my blaring sounds of aoki playing in the car, i heard the sounds of sirens. looking into my left rear window, saw an escort rider coming between the cars. By the way, since the road was enough to fit 2 lanes, they still insisted that all the cars to move aside (and this was on the Tun Razak flyover by the way) to make way for the one with the title. Ish ish ish. tak reti ke that the road is enough for two lanes? sometimes i just dont get it why the ones with the title should be given better treatment when they’re on the road?

i WOULD definitely give way to ambulance, the fire truck.. but not the one’s with the title. i just dont see the logic of giving the priority to them while we’re on the road. Everyone should be treated as equals on the road, because definitely everyone/anyone has somewhere to go to.

its funny that i got pissed off to the extent of.. taking down the plate number. hehe. dont know why.

back to work. =|

=| GROWL.

up early for golf this morning.

good thing i beat mom again at the same spot.. the lake.

came home and ate.

and fucking too many disturbance from annoying people.

thank god that i slept all the way through the late afternoon till now.

not a good day and hoping for a better one the next day which i doubt so.

cant wait to hit the driving range after work tommorow.

yeesh.

red spot

just came back from the atm machine and checked my balance.. 

im left with RM192.43 till end of February.

WTF. How the fuck am i suppose to go through the days. Guess that i will be skipping lunch and dinner for the next 2 weeks to be able to make it.

FUCK!!!

its all in the mind

post : 11.05am 

i dont do this often. as in blog in the office.. since the NY lah.

but i cant handle today. its a really stressed fucked up day. its only 11.00am and i feel like crying at the amount of stuff that i have to do, the amount of people who are after me, juggling between training, work and company’s activity. whoa. today is just to much.

today is the day where i could actually see the true colours of a lot of people, the true colours which was forced out due to unimaginable stress where people has been pushed to their limits. ARGH. its weird that silence could sometimes means nothing, but its all pictured in the eyes of the beholder. looks which could kill, but no words being said.

post :1.10am

after a long day at work, am definitely glad to be home. and now to get back to the text twirl game on facebook. =P

the wait is finally over

to continue the previous entry, the wait is now finally over.

i’ve got my letter finally.. and yea.. at first i found that what i’ve got for myself was pretty.. okay.. until i found out more news from others.

“I’VE GOT GYPPED!”

yea. as discussed before with a friend from work before… we agreed that generation these days are more on to the title of the job rather than the money. well, the logic works that with the title of the positions, comes more money. correcto mundo?

hmm.. there i was walking out from the room feeling confused as they were saying something about some organizational changes which is still uncertain since the effect would be that new deployment will take place. now, the next wait will happen.

what made me unhappy for the day is to find out that certain people got promoted.. and within the team, someone actually did.. someone important to me. no doubt im happy, overjoyed on her promotion.. but look, im still human… and it was a giant fat slap on my face and plus that my ego was torn shredded to pieces. what did i do wrong, what am i not being right? am i not capable enough? am i THAT incompetent? am i not that exceptional?! well, thats the questions which im sure will be left unanswered. i felt so tired suddenly because of all the work i’ve done for the year.. it looks like its all in the bin and i feel unappreciated.

as *x-girl* told me, allow yourself to wallow in self pity for a day.. take the weekend if you have to. promise myself that i’ll be able to think rationally once monday comes. will see if that happens, and i hope it will.

I cant remember when was the last time i cried, but i remembered that i’ve never cried so much in a day sampai mata sakit and bengkak gile. hahaha. i cant stop crying the whole day and carried on till the next day. penat i tell ya.

at least i’ve learnt something now, the fucking hard facts of life. life treats you fair at times, but could screw you up real good once in a while.

**am hoping for better days to come**

well, its been a day plus after i’ve got the news, and im feeling okay a lil.. still upset but yea. as much as i cry, the world is not gonna change from my tears. comfort words contribution of ms alicia keys :

“I Don’t Worry Cause
Everything’s Gonna Be Alright
People Keep Talking
They Can Say What They Like
But All I Know Is Everything Is Gonna Be Alright

 No one, no one, no one, can get in the way of what Im feeling. “

sekian.

note : update on the plant project which I was telling earlier? ITS DEAD. how more blergh can my life be.

moody

sigh..

 the whole day is nothing but sigh..

too much of work, too much of pressure.. too much of being emotionally (not necessary) stressed.

it sucks when the dream turns into a nightmare.. of somesort.

am heading home to sleep it off.

 **doesnt it look like me?**

**poof**

wack

today is nothing but wack.

woke up late for work. as in like 11am.. tsk tsk. manage to get a half day mc but the doctor gave me a full day mc. ( lucky me).. but then decided to come into work and finish up my stuff.

few things of interest happened today.

1. Mini “Confrontation” 

Between me and the leader of the pack. had the chance to tell her of my dissatisfaction and stop treating others with disrespect. people deserves to co-exist.

2. Mini Confrontation with the Boss

OMG. i told him.. “…. at the end of the year, you can just sit on the top of the hill like smiling fat buddha” . geez. didnt think that the level of my annoyance has reached its limits. thank god my tummy saved me before i utter something else which might have gotten me fired. mhahaha.

3. Stumbled

Yeah.. Stumbled upon blog which i found out that it actually existed for quite a while now (although i wont really care..yeah right).. but knowing me being sensitive and all, stumbled upon the blog and read thru.. tsk tsk.  curiousity kills the cat they say.. whoa. the effect of people on you sometimes can kill aye? anyways, privacy is still privacy. will let it be.

its the first day of the birth of this final blog, and its the end of the day for me. i have to sleep if not. sahur tak bangun la.